McCall, you are truly amazing.
My dearest friend,
Never give up. You must recover. You do not have a choice. You will die. And even if you survive…if you give up on this treatment, your life will be mediocre at best. I say this because I love you. Because I was you. I did not get it. I never got it. In treatment one day my therapist said, “You are one purge away from a heart attack.” Suddenly, I ‘got’ it. I slowly began to understand that I was killing myself, literally killing myself, to reach some point of unreachable perfection. In my twisted and disordered mind, my life would be complete and fulfilled once I reached ‘that’ goal. Well I never achieved ‘that’ goal. I always…
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